Saturday, August 7, 2010

Saturday lunch dates

I am waiting to knock off....

Actually looking forward to a very short lunch date with Mr FAT at the Thai Chinese restaurant near our place....

This is not our first lunch date...

Whenever I m working on sat...he would send yy to childcare for half day while my mum takes care of the twins.

We would meet up for a quick lunch after my work, before fetching yy from school and dropping her at my mum's place and collecting the twins from there.

It's a short lunch date but at least we get to spend some time together, just the two of us...

Being a working mum to 3 kids

I am not sure if I enjoy doing what I am doing now.

Being a working mum.

I doubt I would be better off as a full time homemaker, I cannot make it.

Life is hectic, exhausting, sometimes even suffocating

being a working mum.

Work and family life have huge demands on me

I know I can't simply take flight and hide myself.

I also know I can't keep it all in and I would relieve some pressure out in my own way.

While most people feel that friday is the best day of their week, I feel the opposite.

I look forward to fridays, bringing back the twins, enjoying some quality time with them.

But it is also on fridays where my energy level fall to the lowest.

Friday is when my temper flares and my mood swings.

Poor twins.

They see fridays as their best days as they can come home with me and play with each other. They have to bear with a low energy mum and one who is not in her best mood.

Even the husband has to tread carefully around me.

Friday nights, usually late friday nights when the twins refuse to sleep, I struggle to stay awake. I struggle to keep my temper checked.

I start to miss them badly after I send them back to my mum and MIL place on Sunday. And this nagging feeling of missing them will torment me the whole week even though I visit them once or twice within the week when we go to my mum's or MIL's place for dinner.

When I see yy on sunday, I also feel deep inside that I ve been missing her for a long time, even though it's only for the weekend that I don;t get to see her.

Sigh..I guess no one else will experience what I am experiencing now.

Being a working mum...esp one with 3 kids.