I only became a mother after yy was born.
The idea of me being a mother only sank in when I came home with yy from hospital...
I was exhausted and overwhelmed by the huge amount of responsibilities suddenly heaped onto my shoulders....
Life changes after you become a mother and it is never the same again.
I did not have a good sleep for the longest time...only managed an average of 3 hours of sleep every nite for 1st two months...
Even now, after she can sleep through the nite, it is almost unimaginable to sleep till late morning on weekends like I used to do..
No more frequent mahjong sessions, every-weekend outings, frequent friends' gathering, impromptu shopping sprees....I had to plan my time around her and make sure that she is well taken care of...
After I became a mother, I look at my mum and dad in a totally new way. They have never looked so 'big' and 'strong' before...
How on earth did they manage to raise up 3 kids and put 2 of them through university? how in the world did they do that with a meagre household income of $2k? how did they manage when the kids are sick? I started asking them these questions and a lot more...
Motherhood = thankless job.
Not that you expect your child to thank you....It is just that you will do everything for the child wiithout needing him/her to thank you.
There were times I wanted to give up and let her cry for all she want...I dun care...
But I can't.
I care. She's my daughter and I'm her mother.
I m the only one whom she can depend on for food, comfort, sleep. (ok, not the only one as there's still grandmum)
and my mum is the only one i can depend on. (see, it's a cycle!)
I m glad that my mum is with me, supporting me even after I became a mother myself...
I do hope I would be there to support yy when she gets married and become a mother...
You love your children so much that you will worry about them all the rest of your life.
i love mummy, daddy!
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